it started out as a feeling
which then grew into a hope
which then turned into a quiet thought
which then turned into a quiet word

then the word grew louder and louder
till it was a battle cry

i'll come back
when you call me
no need to say goodbye




soundtrack for Chronicles of Narnia, Prince Caspien
what i wouldn't give to just leave this place
and go be a queen in an enchanted forests with talking beavers

i liked nazurah's dream
i hated wawa's dream
my dreams are non existent

keep holding on.

a few days ago there was a touch farewell
too bad naz couldn't make it cause she was still in KL
but we had a lot of fun
best part?
there were 3 CCAs having farewell
Hockey, Touch Rugby and...
SOCCER! hehe ((:

we had a final game in the afternoon
Juniors VS Seniors
before that the seniors played Fun Touch among themselves
by the time it was 7
i was famished!

the J1s were so sweet
and i felt kinda bad for not doing anything
or helping them cook
they prepared fondue (omg)
and there was chicken, sausages, crab sticks
of course i kept having the fondue
it was perfect!
the seniors played some card games
which completely kept me laughing cause of Pau
oh and i learn the "superman" dance from Pau! haha ((:


of course i couldn't resist (:




bumped into Aquila Cheerleaders as well!


Coach Frankie

im gonna miss playing touch with these people
esp gonna miss us singing in the middle of the field
and all of us chasing Frankie around
of course we don't always win every match there is
but in my opinion, we're pretty united
united through our love for the game
and our friendship
i heart Touch Team 07-08!

went Sentosa ystd for the Inca gathering
only 4 J1s came though
but that didn't matter
we still had so much fun
soaking the sun
playing catch and volleyball
and of course swimming
though i must say, the water was really dirty
lightyears away from Tioman waters..

anyways, after lunch at LJ
me, rusy, atiq, aidil, muz and shak went window shopping at Vivo
and then me and darling had dinner at Banquet
a day well spent (:








ice and water


beach babes


me and mel


<3


inca OGLs <3









you know how sometimes you get so caught up in your own world
and not realise how great your life actually is
i mean, most of us a better off than a big portion of the people out there
i've been messed up this holidays
thinking about everything else
on top of which
having to worry about Prelims
but there are times when we take a step back
and be able to see
that we're surrounded by our friends
and they're the only ones keeping this world bearable
simply because
we go through basically the same things
tests, exams
heartaches, break ups
fending off mortal enemies
tolerating weirdos that come in all shapes and sizes
we're in the same phase
experiencing new things
and slowly growing up, together.

i remember a teacher told me once that her best years were spent in JC
and now i really understand why (:

its the Holidays everyone!
away from teachers for awhile
(or at least ppl you don't wanna see in school)

so what're my highlights?
firstly, got a brand new phone!
and i signed on a new contract
2000 smses. if my bill still increases..
anypoo! Cybershot phone! heh
been wanting to get my hands on one of em
so i'll definitely be taking more pictures

so before the holidays began, went on a date with boyfie
been ages since we went on a proper date
caught (SPEED RACER!!!)
(im so sorry for the mistake darling =/)
oh and i caught Indiana Jones 4 with NAZURAH ((:
movie tickets now can cost as much as $10.50 on weekends
its ridiculous. *sigh*



so then the next day paid a long overdue visit
to my grandmother's at Gombak
took the chance to catch up with my cousins too!
and play with Sufi!!!
omg. i really want a cat when i grow up. =D
my and my aunt and uncle together with my 2 cousins
ordered pizza and played Monopoly well into the night
as usual, i suck.







dear is determined to make me healthy
so we planned to keep fit the entire month
so naz and raji joined us for a game of badminton
it was perfect!
i love that sport, and since it makes me run
its a win-win situation
=D



oh! and i caught a soccer match at Kallang
there was 6 of us
met up with Atiq (yayyee!!!) and Zai
and Muz brought along Marissa (:
the atmosphere was infectious
everyone was there to support Singapore
(oh it was Singapore Vs Uzbekistan)
too bad we lost miserably
but it was so much fun!
can really sense the unity among us singaporeans
when it comes to soccer, anything goes. haha







before that, i had lunch with Nazzy!
now she's off at KL
i can't wait for her to be back
i wanna give her the biggest hug ever
i'm missing you already my dear! =/



oh and of course
i went to my sis's house to play with the boys
and of course, being boys
they grabbed my phone and started snapping pictures of themselves
adorable, no? (:


iman can walk now
and i think he is SOOO handsome!
a bit like Micheal Scoffield right right? XD



i found a picture i took of dear playing the guitar
really cool!



the power of a 3.2 megapixel sony cybershot phone. *beams*

lastly, THANKS A GAZILLION ATIQ AND ZAI FOR THE LOVELY PRESENT ((:

Sports Day
the only thing i enjoyed that day
was running 8X50m relay race
and the cheerleading performace
and just so everyone would stop talking about us
to set the record straight
NO we did not copy every single thing from STEP UP 2
we actually (like most other houses)
used steps from our last year performance
so there.

as usual, we're last, again.
i really don't see the point of working so hard
when everyone else won't cooperate
but whatever, now the problem's gonna be our juniors'
(can you believe while everything's going on,
some people were actually jamming at the back,
in their own little world??)
i had a good mind to tell them off. urgh.

so Sports Day was probably the last school event
the J2s will ever have fun in
that is till the As are over
met with Aisyah J and the rest of the PW buddies on FRI
talked to AJ about poly life
and for a moment
i just wondered what it would be like to be in Poly
see if i were to go poly,
i'd be taking a course i've been wanting since Sec 1
Mass Coms at Ngee Ann








right. back to econs then.

ps: i really miss my boyfriend.
and i really miss Starbucking with Naz.

note to self - June Hols.. June Hols.. June Hols..

wow has it really been a month since i last updated?

school sucks. period.
pressure's on for the JC2s
the whole month of April was so taxing
i've never felt more stretched
i guess its the period where both teachers and cca demands a lot
which can be really tiring

what having to face sarcastic remarks from teachers
"go get married"
and at the same time worry whether
i would let my team down (doesn't matter now, its over for us)
trying to complete tutorials everyday
and at the same time, having cheer practices all the way till 9
im so tired physically and mentally

just counting down the days till the June holidays arrive...
then we can all (or me at least ) take one deep breath.

heart pounding, palms sweating
im getting frantic
why?
cause i was about to meet Aidil's family.
not just the immediate family
i received the whole family tree,
a welcoming party.

and knowing for a fact that they've been wanting to meet me
actually adds on to my nerves
Wak Pipik (one of his aunts)
tried to calm my nerves down by telling me to hide behind her
hehe

it all started when i went to IMM by myself
had to go to the M1 headquarters
and collect my sim card (which i lost like a month ago)
i was suppose to meet darling at CCK
we had agreed earlier in the morning
that i joined in his family's celebrations
it was his mom's and cousin's birthday.
and since they invited me, i said okay!
i thought i could use the time i had from IMM to CCK
to calm myself down
turns out one of his aunts came down to fetch me
i was a bundle of nerves in the car
darling tried his best to make me feel better
with little squeezes to my hand
and smiling ever so widely

the moment we stepped in the house
there was a big commotion
and Mak Wiwik started introducing to me
to all the aunts that were there
and all the while all i could do was smile and nod my head
at last i came to darling's Mom
felt a bit relieved after seeing her,
a more familiar face
and by the way, i think his mom is really pretty
(:

the next few hours was spent laughing
talking and me getting to know darling's family as a whole
his aunties are all so hyper and loud
friendly and funny at the same time
i couldnt stop laughing, and so did darling
i had such a wonderful time
hehe thanks Yang!! ((:





then on Sunday, i spent the day with Naz
since it was her birthday 2 days before
went Vivo and ate at Swensens
had a pretty nice view from where we were sitting
talking for hours with Naz is so much fun
and i surprised her with her birthday cake
(made by ME and Mummy)
hope she liked it! haha

then of course, typically
took a gazillion pictures outside with her new sunglasses
and all the sudden naz looks so fashionably cool. hehe!
caught a movie too!
the Spiderwick Chronicles
a really good movie!!
cause i practically screamed with all that tension. haha

ended the day with naz getting Mizuno shoes
and me getting a forever 21 top! hhehe
then we bought some candy from Candy Empire
and headed home




the picture, was my Mom's idea




at one glance, she either looks like Atiqah or Asyura. haha



overall, a weekend well spent. *contented*

song of the week: Colbie Caillat, Realize

the one week break as been disastrous to my studying momentum
i completely lost it
i am hardly studying
trying to kick start the gears is next to impossible
its really hard

and im feeling guilty day by day
cause im not putting in the effort for my block test
then again. what's the point of only feeling guilty
it ain't gonna do anything to improve my studies, right?
*sigh*

can i just skip the next 12 years
and start living life the way i want to live it?
me having my own home
being in complete control of my life
having the freedom to do whatever i want
without having to concede my parents' consent

i wanna travel.
i wanna go to Rome.
visit the pyramids.
see the great wall of china
climb up the Eiffel Tower
sample some arabian street market food.
i wanna go see the world's largest dam
i wanna see a volcano
i wanna experience the niagra falls

when you think about it
we're not really living our lives
until we experience all of that.

12 years.. and counting..